Have you ever
asked yourself what was God thinking when He was creating you? What was the
picture of YOU in His Mind during that time? a.k.a. “what is your purpose in
life”?
I am sure
everyone does.
This is an
excerpt from the book I’m reading now, which inspired me to write this blog.
If you
know what something is designed to do, then you know its purpose in life. A
retriever loves the water; a lion loves the hunt; a hawk loves to soar. It’s
what they’re made for. Desire reveals design, and design reveals destiny.
Yesterday, I
found a perfect opportunity to think about this while waiting for an interview
in Makati. I took out my pad and pen and started listing down all the desires
of my heart since the earliest time I could remember.
(My earliest
desires are very important, because these are the purest desires from my heart,
without any limitations)
I arranged
the desires in chronological order, the most accurate way I could do.
A
Teacher. Yes, my very first desire (that I could remember) was to be a teacher.
This was during my elementary days. I even made Lesson Plans in my head. Most
of the time when I was in bed, waiting to fall asleep, I imagined myself in
front of a class, doing the lesson that I previously planned. However, my
mother had established to me implicitly that teachers don’t really earn good.
So I crossed this out from my options. But then, nothing can stop me from
imagining at night.
Architect.
With my Mongol pencil, ruler and bond papers, I did a lot of building designs before.
Aside from the entirely new designs, I also redesigned our house and my schools
which include the externals and the floor plan! From the smallest detail to the
biggest. Recalling those designs, I couldn’t believe I was that amazed and
devoted to building designs. I even searched images of buildings from our Encyclopedia
before.
Photographer.
I also imagined myself being a photographer before. Not the technical
photography that I know now. But just the fact of going around and taking
pictures, it excited me back then. I even had a poem for it.
Musical play. Neither a straight play nor a musical show in a theatrical setting. I
want a Musical Play. My first ever musical play I’ve seen was entitled
“Alikabok”. It was not as famous but it ignited this desire in my heart on this
kind of shows. Ever since, it was my dream to join one, even as a Taongbayan
(or just part of the chorus).
Song
writing. During my high school years, I’ve written lots of poems and some
songs. These usually happened when there was a burst of emotions, say when I
was in love, or I was super depressed. However I was not able to keep them. And
right now, I don’t think I can still write.
Science.
Yes, I was best in Science back in High School. I think, what I liked about
science was the analysis involved. Even up to now, I love analyzing things
within the sphere of my interests. One afternoon, I saw myself scrutinizing our
can opener just to understand how it works. Another thing about science was
that the analysis made sense to me. I mean, I appreciate every lesson because I
could see it in my surroundings. I am a visual person. I need to visualize it
in my mind to comprehend it. That is why, I could easily understand
mathematical equations in a scientific setting.
Events
Management. During high school, I was involved in some school events. The most
memorable one was the Filipino Month Celebration on August during my senior
year. My love for events continued in college years. I was able to do a Quiz
Bee and our college sports festival. I was very particular up to the smallest
details when it comes to events (for other things, no). I want them to be perfect,
to the point that I didn’t delegate tasks to committees. I wanted to do
everything by myself. But of course now, now that I am working (which by the
way, is related to events), it is impossible not to delegate tasks. I also love
attending events and watching out for things for improvement and how to improve
it. I love redoing the event in my mind (If I will take charge, how will it
be?).
Photography.
My love for photography continues up to now. Although now, instead of loving
the fact of me just taking photographs of everything, my desire has zoomed in capturing
emotions. I want to take images of people with genuine emotions on their face.
I am not sure if I’m doing it excellently because I still don’t know the
technicalities of photography. But I love it.
Teaching.
Who would have thought that my desire for teaching is still here in my heart?
Yes. I still desire to teach, but now, it is not necessarily a teacher or in an
academic setting. I love teaching, whatever, whenever, wherever. I enjoyed our
UPCAT Review in one of my college orgs. I felt so satisfied when I worked as a
tutor as a sideline. I enjoyed coaching a colleague. I enjoyed leading our Life
Group back in Vietnam (I still have no Life Group now). I enjoyed my One2One
with Phuc. And imagine the pleasure I got when I was able to talk twice to
E-club.
Learning.
Aside from teaching, I also want to be taught. According to Strengths Finder
2.0 by Tom Rath, I have a strong “Learner” talent. According to this, I am
always drawn to the process of learning, but the topic depends on my interests.
The process, more than the content or the result, is especially exciting for
me. I am energized by the steady and deliberate journey from ignorance to
competence. And true enough, I do. I love experiencing and learning new
things. For example right now, I want to learn Muai Thai. I don’t really want
to fight in a ring, nor use it as a defense mechanism, I actually don’t know
why I would like to learn it, but the process of learning it, it makes me
craves for it.
Travels and Adventures. I think linked to my desire to learn is this desire to
discover. Discovering places. Immersing to different cultures. If I just have
the luxury of money and time, I would be visiting places after places. Not like
the regular tourists who spend just a week or less visiting the “tourist
spots”. I want a deeper immersion of myself to the place, to the people and to
the culture. The less “tourist” the experience is, the more I want it. The more
exotic, the more I desire for it.
I’ve notice that some of the desires I got when I was still
a kid still persist here in my heart. And for some, a common denominator
exists. Hmmm. But that’s for another round of meditation.